“Time to open up a new chapter in life, and to explore a larger centre.” -Lillian Russell
As some of you may know I am attending grad school at Cleveland State starting in August. I received a graduate assistantship and will be working for the school, but also keeping my other job as well. With this assistantship they are paying for my tuition which helps me out a lot because I am in a lot of debt from my undergraduate degree. As the days go by I find myself starting to get more and more nervous for grad school and I find myself asking questions such as, “What if I hate it”, “What if I’m not good at it”, and “What if I can’t find enough time to do everything”. I’m sure this is only normal for graduate students and no matter how many times I tell myself I still find myself freaking out.
I don’t know what grad school will be like and I don’t know what the next year will have in store for me, but I’m trying to have confidence in myself. I got into grad school and I was lucky enough to receive a graduate assistantship. YOU CAN DO THIS (I hope).
Here are my expectations for grad school:
- You cannot miss a single class. Unlike undergrad where you were able to sleep through your classes and not show up because you didn’t feel like it that day.
- Your professors will expect so much more out of you and it will scare the crap out of you, because I personally still feel like I am in high school. WHERE HAS THE TIME GONE?
- There will be a lot more research involved and the main focus is no longer just your classes, but the outside research as well.
- Being a graduate assistant will take up a lot of my time either grading papers or tutoring undergraduate students.
- I will have a total meltdown and will not be able to finish grad school.
Okay clearly the 5th one is a joke…but that’s how I feel 95% of the time right now. And I keep trying to tell myself not to panic, but I think that honestly makes it worse. I know it will all work out the way it’s supposed to be in the end. Maybe graduate school is for me and maybe it isn’t, but I’m happy that I am taking the risk and that I want to purse my education even more. I love to learn and if graduate school can give me the extra edge I need to succeed in my career then I am happy to do everything it takes for me to succeed.