My Polaroid Journal

I keep a journal where I record my life. I write down the big things that happen to me. Not that I woke up and brushed my teeth, but my dating life, school life, and in general things I want to remember. I write about the ups and the downs. When someone is nice to me or when someone is mean to me. So yeah I have probably written about you in my journal once or twice. For the new year I wanted to start a different type of journal. A polaroid journal. I’ll take a picture and write about the picture. This way when I look back and read the journal I can actually put a picture to the memory. I thought this was the perfect idea for the new year.


“Take a lot of pictures. You’ll only regret the ones you didn’t take.”


"Never let it be said that to dream is a waste of 
one's time. For dreams are our realities 
in waiting. In dreams, we plant the seeds 
of our future." 


I want all my dreams to come true and I know that in order for this to happen that I need to aspire to be great. I’m halfway done with my senior year of college and for the longest time I was about to give up hope of trying to figure out what I want to do. I had no clue what I wanted to do with my life and I honestly had no motivation to even figure it out, but somehow a spark lit inside of me and there’s no way in hell I’m letting it burn out anytime soon.

Over the past couple of weeks I have been writing like crazy. A lot of people may not understand my need to write my feelings out, but it honestly helps me deal with a lot of my problems. And overall I just love to write. I’ve become so passionate about it. I’ve had a lot happen to me over the last couple months, and it has felt so good to be able to write down how I am feeling and share it on my blog.

I’ve been applying for internship after internship and it seemed as if I would never get one, but finally I did. I started today and I just feel like all my dreams are going to come true. Of course the internship I got is a small business, but I have to start somewhere. I am happy to start small and get my foot in the door, and eventually I hope to end up in New York City with my best friend who has similar goals as I do.

I want to be great and I won’t stop until I am. All my dreams are going to come true one day even though sometimes it seems to be a bumpy ride. But I know I will get to where I want to be someday. I know that moving to New York will never be easy, but I know it’s worth the fight. College has been all about finding myself, and maybe I haven’t found exactly who I am yet, or who I want to be, but this year I have figured out a lot about myself that I never even knew.

Right now I am starting off small, but one day I won’t be so small anymore, and nothing excites me more than thinking about the day that all my dreams come true.

I guess I got that big city dreamer mentality. 


Books I Want To Watch Over Break:

Now that finals are over it’s time to sit back and relax. Six weeks off from hell. By hell I mean professors, exams, 12 page research papers, and that annoying girl that seems to be in all your classes. And if you’re a senior like myself then all we have is ONE more semester until graduation. I cannot tell you how excited I am to be done with school.

Even though it’s break and I can’t wait to relax and binge watch Desperate Housewives I can finally keep up with my reading that I never have time to do during the semester. Hopefully I can read 5 books over break.

Here they are:

  1. 50 Shades Freed By E.L James (50 Shades of Grey Trilogy)
  2. How To Kill a Mockingbird By Harper Lee
  3. The Help By Kathryn Stockett
  4. The Time Travelers wife By Audrey Niffenegger
  5. The Perks of Being a Wallflower By Stephen Chbosky